"Makes sense. Most people do." He's seen a lot, but generally people prefer being alive to the alternative. ... The blushing is cute. The blushing is super cute, and - "Really? ... Had a hard time making friends? Or just..."
How to put it? "People being too 'manly' to make comments like that?" He's not... totally sure that he's getting his point across right, but that could be either cultural issues or just socially awkward people being socially awkward. "But the different cultural mores affecting stuff makes sense. And I -" Oh.
Oh.
"I... uh. Mm. Canada just really recently legalized gay marriage when I'm from and the United States - which I moved to around that time - still... is slow to catch up. And my dad isn't... really accepting about that kind of stuff. And I mean, he grew up in a really different time but I -" ... Is he trying to make excuses for his father of all people, when he knows what his dad had willingly - presumably - been a part of? He clears his throat.
"That's not... really an excuse." His shoes are suddenly extremely interesting, pardon him while he looks at them. "So I kept it quiet. And... just became the quiet weird kid who was 'too nerdy' to be interested in dating. Basically cultivating an air of loserness to deflect... suspicions. So I didn't... need to tell anyone that I'm -" It's still hard to even say the word 'gay' without it feeling like an insult in some way. "That I like - that I don't like girls like that."
This is harder than he thought it would be. He's not even going to get into the 'Quebec is extremely Catholic' thing. It's not like he or his dad ever pretended to be religious, so Casper Senior couldn't have used that as an excuse. "Sorry, I... I never thought anyone would be... nice? About that?" He'd never even set foot in a gay social event of any kind - he'd known that there were people like him out there, but... he'd never asked. He'd seen people online but... he'd never really made friends online like that.
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How to put it? "People being too 'manly' to make comments like that?" He's not... totally sure that he's getting his point across right, but that could be either cultural issues or just socially awkward people being socially awkward. "But the different cultural mores affecting stuff makes sense. And I -" Oh.
Oh.
"I... uh. Mm. Canada just really recently legalized gay marriage when I'm from and the United States - which I moved to around that time - still... is slow to catch up. And my dad isn't... really accepting about that kind of stuff. And I mean, he grew up in a really different time but I -" ... Is he trying to make excuses for his father of all people, when he knows what his dad had willingly - presumably - been a part of? He clears his throat.
"That's not... really an excuse." His shoes are suddenly extremely interesting, pardon him while he looks at them. "So I kept it quiet. And... just became the quiet weird kid who was 'too nerdy' to be interested in dating. Basically cultivating an air of loserness to deflect... suspicions. So I didn't... need to tell anyone that I'm -" It's still hard to even say the word 'gay' without it feeling like an insult in some way. "That I like - that I don't like girls like that."
This is harder than he thought it would be. He's not even going to get into the 'Quebec is extremely Catholic' thing. It's not like he or his dad ever pretended to be religious, so Casper Senior couldn't have used that as an excuse. "Sorry, I... I never thought anyone would be... nice? About that?" He'd never even set foot in a gay social event of any kind - he'd known that there were people like him out there, but... he'd never asked. He'd seen people online but... he'd never really made friends online like that.