"It's... it's not like... I don't want to push you away. I just... I don't want to make you leave, it's just... I don't know how to handle this shit?" He doesn't swear a lot but right now it feels appropriate. "I don't want you to go. I don't want this feeling to leave but I don't know what to do with my feelings since I... I guess 'emotionally stunted' is a good description?"
Given his family life it's not surprising. "Please... don't leave. I don't... I don't want to be alone. I can be if you want me to it's just... I'm - fuck, I feel like a disaster. How is it that I can explain to a ghost that they're dead but I can't explain what I'm feeling?" This has turned into a trainwreck and he's not sure how to stop it. "... I just know that I don't want to be alone."
Has he seriously fallen for a cute guy he's only just met? He's not sure. And an older man, too. Gods is he a walking stereotype or something? He feels like it, even if he knows that no, it's just how it is. ... For him, at least. He's been scared before, but this... this is a situation where he is utterly lost. He has no idea how to react or what he should do.
"You're... too nice to me. I get shit on by the universe so I clearly did something wrong. I just... I don't understand how you can be so nice..." Fuck, is he going to start crying again? He doesn't want to cry again, not in front of Shang Qinghua.
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Given his family life it's not surprising. "Please... don't leave. I don't... I don't want to be alone. I can be if you want me to it's just... I'm - fuck, I feel like a disaster. How is it that I can explain to a ghost that they're dead but I can't explain what I'm feeling?" This has turned into a trainwreck and he's not sure how to stop it. "... I just know that I don't want to be alone."
Has he seriously fallen for a cute guy he's only just met? He's not sure. And an older man, too. Gods is he a walking stereotype or something? He feels like it, even if he knows that no, it's just how it is. ... For him, at least. He's been scared before, but this... this is a situation where he is utterly lost. He has no idea how to react or what he should do.
"You're... too nice to me. I get shit on by the universe so I clearly did something wrong. I just... I don't understand how you can be so nice..." Fuck, is he going to start crying again? He doesn't want to cry again, not in front of Shang Qinghua.