Oh. Self-loathing panic on both sides. Shang Qinghua is… not exactly competent to deal with that, but at least he’s figured out what’s going on. “Maybe the crying is good, then? Not repressing emotions? I don’t know, I— mostly end up using emotions as like, a shield. It’s not like anyone cares about— that’s not the point, I’m not the point. The point is, is that sometimes the universe is just fucking mean to people for no reason? Like, maybe I wasn’t a very good author, but that’s not usually a crime punished by horrible murder! And you were born your mother’s son, right? So it’s not like you did something wrong before you were conceived, unless you subscribe to some kind of reincarnation karma theory, which I don’t, and anyway if your past life did something fuck that guy he’s not you what does it matter, and… I think I lost track of my point. I— I don’t want to be alone, either, and you’re—a good person to not be alone with. I like you.” Oh god, did he just say that out loud with his mouth? “I mean, in a… normal way? I— um. Sorry, I don’t want to make you uncomfortable, I’m not used to people being nice to me either, and you’re so nice, and you hugged me I haven’t been hugged in decades, and…” Shut up, Airplane. “Sorry, I know I talk too much, I’ll shut up.” Would it be weird to hug him again? It would probably be weird.
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Oh. Self-loathing panic on both sides. Shang Qinghua is… not exactly competent to deal with that, but at least he’s figured out what’s going on. “Maybe the crying is good, then? Not repressing emotions? I don’t know, I— mostly end up using emotions as like, a shield. It’s not like anyone cares about— that’s not the point, I’m not the point. The point is, is that sometimes the universe is just fucking mean to people for no reason? Like, maybe I wasn’t a very good author, but that’s not usually a crime punished by horrible murder! And you were born your mother’s son, right? So it’s not like you did something wrong before you were conceived, unless you subscribe to some kind of reincarnation karma theory, which I don’t, and anyway if your past life did something fuck that guy he’s not you what does it matter, and… I think I lost track of my point. I— I don’t want to be alone, either, and you’re—a good person to not be alone with. I like you.” Oh god, did he just say that out loud with his mouth? “I mean, in a… normal way? I— um. Sorry, I don’t want to make you uncomfortable, I’m not used to people being nice to me either, and you’re so nice, and you hugged me I haven’t been hugged in decades, and…” Shut up, Airplane. “Sorry, I know I talk too much, I’ll shut up.” Would it be weird to hug him again? It would probably be weird.